Dee Sekar
                                                                                      The Table

It's funny what bought us together. Four tired legs and a wooden surface. You gave me a fantastic look of contempt with your
yellow-stained, bulging eyes peering out from behind a heavy black set of frames. Your look was as clear as someone shouting
"hello there!" or "my name is..." However, your introduction was wordless and inaudible. Your introduction would be remembered
for its hostility. "Move your books, you table-hogger," you silently screamed through your soulless windows.
Not one to shy away from a challenge, I moved my books but two can play at that game. I glared back tacitly and ensuring I had a
joyous smirk in my eyes, I beamed back, "there you go. Grumpy sod." You sat down with a colossal slump which caused our
mutual friend, The Table to wobble unsteadily and creak slowly to the left and then to the right. A pathetic attempt to remind us It
had lost Its oak strength over the years after bitter onslaughts from children's sticky fingers bruising Its thinning legs to fool-hardy
noughts and crosses dotting Its fragile exterior and mental arithmetic retards scratching out sums on Its surface. The Table had
not seen or smelt polish since the day It had been created. When Its contours were traced over and over again with the
distinguished pride of Its master. Now, the only tracing It felt was that of fat fingers repeatedly following the hollow marks that had
been etched brazenly across Its dull brown skin: "F*** U, U C****!!!!!" It's creak was if to plead, "Please, leave me out of this."
You opened up your newspaper and that is when the sounds began. A low, heavy breathing which, if overheard by a passing
lady, would give her cause to turn and panic. A thunderous hoarse wheeze with a triumphant several second hiss just before
your pitiful lungs gasped for more air to absorb into your rotten body. Your deep inhalation caused your obese chest and bulging
eyes to grow even larger. The grey, hairy patches of your skin seemed to be laughing at me. You emitted a stale, dark stench; a
culmination of your breath, body and hair. A power ball of odour which seeps into everything that it surrounds. A triumphant
unwashed mass who Cezanne would have been proud to know. However you, I'm sure, are talentless and futile.
You begin to peer over at me when you think I'm not looking. You take a long, hard stare at my face, then my
clothes, my books and then seethe with anger at the small, tidy heap of chewing gum wrappers and bits of used
papers I have folded into small squares.
I rise up to this duel and glare right back. Of course, when you are not looking. You are an embarrassing mix of sickly
yellow and dirty grey. You look like a cake-mix which has been stirred but then left and forgotten. Completely unwanted
and unloved. You are so grotesque, but why do I desire to photograph you and remember you?
To top it all, you're reading a cheap tabloid. 'Something...something...World War II' is all I can
make out from the crooked angle you hold your paper with your swollen right hand involuntarily
shaking every few seconds.
What? Something drops on the blurred headline I'm trying to make out. Yuck - a drool of spit. There goes
another one. I look up to your face expecting to see you foaming at the mouth and raring to expel a saliva
clump my way. But wait, I am wrong. For these damp drops are falling from your yellow, bulging eyes. The
cholesterol-filled sacs are unwillingly shedding some of their weight. Your trembling, swollen hand
reaches up to swat them away. But it is too late. For I have seen your tears.
Dee's Photos


PRIMROSE SUN
Rolling upon rolling, towards the clouds we go.
A pink rose wave of sunlight streaming gently, beaming mildly,
takes it turn to wade over us, magnificently, undulating
with monumental pride.

This is the one sea which shall never cascade any danger.
This is the one sea which encapsulates all but harms no one.

Look to the curls of clouds and the wisps of wind,
A trajectory of small fragments of His soul.
In all its glory how it hangs so delicately.
A precious frame that enshrines the stillness of its roar.

Some are fortunate to bask in its overwhelming shadow
and embrace the sensation that amounts to peace.
Others hurry by, not looking, not glancing, uncaring, indifferent.
But not I.
For I shall remember you.
A passionate moment we shared amongst the twisted leaves, sharp
blades of grass and fingers of the trees.
A moment intensely heightened, captured and treasured.
A moment we shall name, our primrose sun.
A HURRICANE

Watch the colours drain from you when you emerge from the
shallow waters of the stagnant pool we both lay in.
Shakes of shock - had you really been lying next to me all this
time?
But remember, it was you who had violently grabbed my arm in
the dark,
Desperately hoping that I would understand and not toss you
gently back into the black waters.
That forged connection: charged by the same fuel and fuelled by
the same charge.
How wondrous, how exotic. How typical.
You told me you already held the arm of another who lay longer,
closer and nearer to you.
An arm which I am bruised by repeatedly and relentlessly.
But listen, child.
I live by chances and shun regret.
You live by regret and shun chances.
So look out now.
A hurricane is coming.
Copyright © Dee Sekar 2005
The Mask

Pick it up child and
embrace it with your
trembling fingers.
Trace the shapes, the
curves, rough and tender,
Mark your own eyes with
its eyes,
Your mouth kisses its
porcelain lips.
Feel its own skin rubbing
against yours,
The shiver of becoming
one numbs you rigid.
This is what it feels like to
lie next to someone so
cold.